The Empress' Journal

empress_padme @ 2007-08-28T22:18:00

2007-08-29T05:19:45Z

The baby kicked today. *smiles* Anakin needs to come home.

Fragile theatrical_muse

2007-03-16T01:42:10Z

Padme was alone watching the Jedi temple across the way. The place where Anakin was. It wasn't until she turned away that she allowed herself to just let go, to cry. Instead of being the senator, she was a fragile doll that had just broken. Her husband was away from her and she had no clue if he would come home. Obi-wan knew of the marriage, of who the child's father was. Anakin was going to be in such a great deal of trouble that she didn't know what to do.

She covered her hand with her mouth and went to sit down, Jar Jar in the other room as his ears drooped hearing the sadness that enveloped the Senator. The woman that was usually so strong breaking down like a child. He realized for the first time in his being there, that she was no less a normal human being then any of the people that she had once served on Naboo.

Padme was fragile, she was human, and now, she needed her husband more then ever.

Topic #15 elite_muses

2006-09-25T10:03:32Z

Have you ever faced death

In my life? Many times. There was the time when the Trade Federation would have killed me for certain if the Jedi hadn't come to the rescue. Then there was the time when I thought I was going to die with Anakin and Obi-wan chained to that pillar until we decided to fight back. Lastly, there was Mustafar, where my death was greatly exagerrated. My heart did stop for a short time, but then that was only to fool everyone. The Jedi Council had seen to that. They made it so it appeared I was dead. MY family mourned my loss and everything. I hate them for that. I was a Queen, a Senator, a wife and a mother. Death comes at me everyday given my life now, I just choose to fight it. You must look death straight in the eyes and tell it to go to hell if you wish to survive. To fear it, is to give in. To fight it is to live. I'll face death many more times in my life I am certain, but it is the will for living that I have that keeps me strong, and keeps me alive.

Padme Amidala
Star Wars
200 words

Topic #11 elite_muses

2006-09-25T09:56:12Z

Theme song

In modern times, there is a song that I feel descries my life from the moment I met Anakin. That song would be from a movie called Moulin Rouge, and is entitled 'Come what may'. Why do I feel this song fits us perfectly? To be honest the words hit closer to home then I would like to admit, I never knew that I could feel things such as I did with him, I thought the only thing I would ever love was my job. he showed me differently. He made me realize that I could, I was more then my job. Adnd I was more then what I believed in. He made me realize that I was more then who I THOUGHT I was. It speaks to me because it describes my life, all my fears, doubts, and my dreams. And everything that I wanted but afraid to have. This is my song, no our song. No other song comes to mind off of the top of my head. There is probably a few more songs that I could put down, but you asked for one, so I won't trouble myself to answer with more.

Padme Amidala
Star Wars
200 words

Thoughts on Marriage elite_muses

2006-07-23T18:46:47Z

Marriage was something, as a Queen, that I was never allowed to think about. The Queens did not marry until their reign was over, and in essence they would pray that it would be a daughter so that they could follow in the footsteps of the mother. I knew of the life of a married woman though through my mother, who had high values and morals, and my mother and father were very much in love, defying all impossibilities that came their way. No obstacle was so hard, that together, they could not get through it. I was built around this tradition, and therefore it's what in the end I became.

I didn't think about marriage when I was Queen, that was until I met Anakin. I started thinking what if, which is a terrible thing for a Queen to imagine. You're job comes first, but I found myself finding moments to myself to mull over the answers. It wasn't until I was Senator that I was allowed more time to think within my own world. I knew from the moment I laid eyes on Anakin again when Obi-wan and himself had come to my protection, that those thoughts which I very well wanted hidden behind the mask of the calm and collected face would come back. He had grown, so much. So handsome, and when he spoke his words about me, and then told me how much I was hurting him, I realized, I needed him. I wanted him. I saw him and I living the same life as my mother and myself. We were as one in many ways.

We were married secretly later that year, and I knew it was wrong, but like my mother and father, Anakin and I would overcome all obstacles that were thrown in our way. Our love was written in the stars, in the flame that a candle held, and in the words of our promise to one another on that balcony. Marriage is something to hold sacred, and you will be by their side in life as well as death through everything. You will be their salvation when they need it the most, you will wake up beside them every morning and whisper 'I love you' before going to prepare the breakfast of the morning. Marriage is....

Padme Amidala
Star Wars Prequels
391 words.

RP for fatal_hatsumomo and Anakin if he wants to bump in lol

2006-06-25T05:18:42Z

Padme had been eager to meet with Hatsumomo, and when the day arrived for her, Padme had taken to making sure everything was perfect for her guest. It wasn't everyday that someone she honored was coming to her home. The tea had been made, the cups had been washed several times, and the house had been cleaned and cleaned again in anticipation of the arrival. Her dear friends had made sure that Padme was dressed as nicely as possible, even doing her hair and her dresses in the style much like the Queens had. Though not quite, Padme felt to do so would be dishonoring the memory, so she went for a sensible fashion. She took a deep breathe, the fans laid on the table in a box waiting for her honored guest. Padme as well had a gift for Hatsumomo, and she smiled, waiting at the door for her 'friend' to arrive.

Topic 1 and 2 for elite_muses

2006-06-25T04:50:35Z

What is something that has happened to you that has helped shape the person you are today?

My birth. Since the day I was born I held something perhaps only my mother saw. She saw something great and at the age of foutreen, I was appointed Queen of Naboo, became Queen Amidala and the life I had before seemed insignificant. I never forgot where I came from, but being the Queen changed me completely more then anyone can image. I had been trained, done my schooling accordingly, but nothing prepared me for the life's destiny that were to happen to me.

Had the Trade Federation not tried to force me into signing a treaty, the Jedi would have never come to ensure my safety. We would have not gone to Tatooine, and therefore my encounter with Anakin would have never happened. Meeting Anakin made me realize something, and maintain the understanding that the well being of others always came first. That is who I was, and who I am still today, thanks to Anakin. The world owes him much more then they might care to admit. I know I was forever changed by a little boy who was destined to become a Jedi, and so many others were as well. Sometimes, the world changes you, and sometimes, a person changes you.
Padme Amidala
Star Wars
205 words

Naboo is in the southern quadrant of the galaxies, and one of my favorite places in the world. A lot of people come here to visit during what people call winter. For it's a place that is constantly with flowers in bloom, and the lake is there for the beauty of others to see. I often described Naboo as Japan in it's prime days, before the wars washed away what natural beauty that the land had to offer.

Temperatures in Naboo were always wonderful, you could wear what you wanted, when you wished. Look at me, talking about my home planet and perhaps embellishing it because of my own love for it. But you provided the word south, and when I think of south, I think of Naboo, where my heart is. It's not hard to imagine I'd be so fond of a country that has so much to offer to others. Natural beauty is something not everywhere can achieve. I'm sure there are other places, but I've not gone to many to explore, but those that I have seen, nothing compares to my homeland. South, yes South is Naboo. Is that a good enough answer?
202 words

1.1a, 1.3b and 1.4a for realmofthemuse

2006-04-27T19:23:38Z

1.1A
Anakin had become my life, even when he was the small boy on that planet where we found him, I was Queen then, and the republic was so strong. So needed. I had done my part to keep my people safe. And when I smiled at Anakin when we won, with his hair all short, and standing next to Obi-wan, I knew right then and there, he was something special. I didn't realize how special. I never took that tiny necklace off that he gave me. Never. I used it to remember him by. As completely dumb as it sounded, I loved him, not in the romantic way at that point, but i felt love for him. As a friend would thier companion. And in that time, Anakin had become my companion in all the times when I had switched identities with Sabe, truth be told, I waited like a giddy child playing in the fields of Naboo for the chance to see Ani again.

And when he was away at the Jedi schooling, there wasn't a day that passed that I didn't wish for him to be safe, to come back to me. I missed him, the pangs in my heart had gotten worse as the years passed. And then the threat on my life had come, and it had taken Corde's life. I was heartbroken, and I needed Anakin there. It was as if my prayers were answered when the Chancellor told me that the Jedi would be coming to protect me. I had hoped for Ani, and Obi-Wan, and my prayers were answered. I felt Anakin before he even arrived in my presence, I of course had to remain completely professional, but my heart fluttered in my chest when I laid my eyes on him. He had grown, into such a handsome young man, I didn't reconize him. I think he was hurt that I didn't. I think he expected more. I wanted more. The struggle had started within me, and it was something I simply couldn't stop. And it was something that I would never regret.

I remember the first time he touched me, i remember my eyes closing, and goosebumps lining my arms. And that was that, I had pulled away in a feat of trying to be strong, make things right, fight my feelings. And then the first time his lips pressed down against mine, I was lost in the moment, my heart skipped a beat and my whole body reacted. This is what love felt like. He loved me, but instead of returning that love, I shoved him back. Telling him it was wrong, but I was only fooling myself into believing such. And when were on genosis, and when I told him i loved him, right before we were to die, I meant it. I meant every last word of it, and the kiss we had then, was perhaps one of the ones that I remember the most. I didn't say it because I thought I was going to die, I said it because I meant it from the very core of my being. Anakin, I had come to realize, was my soulmate. Then Anakin and i survived, along with Obi, and things fell into place from that moment on. Anakin had lost his hand, and was afraid of me feeling difference to him because of that. But when he took my hand at the joining ceremony, I had felt like the happiest girl in the world. Nothing else mattered but anakin and I, even though we were both about to face the biggest challenge of our lives. Keeping it secret.

Anakin and I had been seperated due to his jedi duties, he had been sent away to deal with dooku. And i missed him so. Then I had discovered that I was with child. I wanted Ani to be there. I wanted him to know. But alas, I couldn't until he returned. When i had gotten word that he was returning, I waited patiently behind a pillar. To hold him in my arms again and feel his lips were perhaps the one thing in life that I craved the most. That I needed. Many things happened, Anakin's dreams being plagued by the death of me, the evil starting to take him away from me. And then the final confrontation on the fire planet, I was so heartbroken that I didn't realize Obi was on the ship with me. I hadn't paid enough attention, the anakin I knew wasn't there anymore. He was trapped inside and i couldn't get him out. I would have given everything I am for him, anything for him. I would have given it all. I had been so selfish to see that he was doing this for me, for us. For us to be together. How could I have been so blind. I gave my life for Anakin, though, I never did die in actuality, I'm still here, I wonder if Anakin can feel me..I can feel him...even if he's not the Anakin I knew, I know I can bring him back, if I"m given a chance...for the thought of losing him completely, that is a thought too much to bear on my soul.

Muse: Padme Amidala
Fandom: Star Wars
Word Count: 899

1.4A

Written PRE- Episode II

When Anakin said his goodbye to me, I felt my heart break, as if a piece of myself had left my body. He was heading to the Jedi Temple to begin his training as a Padawan. I knew what this meant, for me, for him, for...us. We could never be after this. should have begged him to stay, but my position as well as my pride wouldn't allow me. After the celebration was over, he was taken on a ship by Obi-wan to a new life. A life away from me. When he looked at me, as the door closed to the ship, did he see what was behind my eyes? Would he forget me as time passed on?

A woman in my position had to live a certain way. I was obliged to the politcal life that I had chosen for myself. One of the things I had never intended on doing was allowing myself to fall for someone and to care for someone the way that I found myself feeling for Anakin. He's the one that got away. Perhaps, I'll find him again someday, when both our lives are different.
199 words

1.3B

Written Pre Padme's untimely demise

I know what you're thinking, but truely it wasn't my fault. It wasn't anyone's fault. I never intended for Anakin to fall from grace the way he did. The grace that everyone tried to put him on. Not me. Ever. I didn't lead him to the Darkside, I would have never done that, there was so much good within him that when he did start to change, I saw the manipulation that had been dealt to him by Palpatine. My love couldn't save him, his mentor and friend couldn't save him. My hopes and dreams of us going away to naboo and giving our children the life they deserved was shattered. It wasn't MY fault. The destiny that was set to happen was preset before our births! They were meant to happen in the order that they did because of that prophecy, and I wish that I had the power to change the ending results, that are somehow now shattering our lives one by one. It wasn't my fault....
178 words

Realm of the Muse APP: how much is too much

2006-04-09T22:58:47Z

Anakin had become my life, even when he was the small boy on that planet where we found him, I was Queen then, and the republic was so strong. So needed. I had done my part to keep my people safe. And when I smiled at Anakin when we won, with his hair all short, and standing next to Obi-wan, I knew right then and there, he was something special. I didn't realize how special. I never took that tiny necklace off that he gave me. Never. I used it to remember him by. As completely dumb as it sounded, I loved him, not in the romantic way at that point, but i felt love for him. As a friend would thier companion. And in that time, Anakin had become my companion in all the times when I had switched identities with Sabe, truth be told, I waited like a giddy child playing in the fields of Naboo for the chance to see Ani again.

And when he was away at the Jedi schooling, there wasn't a day that passed that I didn't wish for him to be safe, to come back to me. I missed him, the pangs in my heart had gotten worse as the years passed. And then the threat on my life had come, and it had taken Corde's life. I was heartbroken, and I needed Anakin there. It was as if my prayers were answered when the Chancellor told me that the Jedi would be coming to protect me. I had hoped for Ani, and Obi-Wan, and my prayers were answered. I felt Anakin before he even arrived in my presence, I of course had to remain completely professional, but my heart fluttered in my chest when I laid my eyes on him. He had grown, into such a handsome young man, I didn't reconize him. I think he was hurt that I didn't. I think he expected more. I wanted more. The struggle had started within me, and it was something I simply couldn't stop. And it was something that I would never regret.

I remember the first time he touched me, i remember my eyes closing, and goosebumps lining my arms. And that was that, I had pulled away in a feat of trying to be strong, make things right, fight my feelings. And then the first time his lips pressed down against mine, I was lost in the moment, my heart skipped a beat and my whole body reacted. This is what love felt like. He loved me, but instead of returning that love, I shoved him back. Telling him it was wrong, but I was only fooling myself into believing such. And when were on genosis, and when I told him i loved him, right before we were to die, I meant it. I meant every last word of it, and the kiss we had then, was perhaps one of the ones that I remember the most. I didn't say it because I thought I was going to die, I said it because I meant it from the very core of my being. Anakin, I had come to realize, was my soulmate. Then Anakin and i survived, along with Obi, and things fell into place from that moment on. Anakin had lost his hand, and was afraid of me feeling difference to him because of that. But when he took my hand at the joining ceremony, I had felt like the happiest girl in the world. Nothing else mattered but anakin and I, even though we were both about to face the biggest challenge of our lives. Keeping it secret.

Anakin and I had been seperated due to his jedi duties, he had been sent away to deal with dooku. And i missed him so. Then I had discovered that I was with child. I wanted Ani to be there. I wanted him to know. But alas, I couldn't until he returned. When i had gotten word that he was returning, I waited patiently behind a pillar. To hold him in my arms again and feel his lips were perhaps the one thing in life that I craved the most. That I needed. Many things happened, Anakin's dreams being plagued by the death of me, the evil starting to take him away from me. And then the final confrontation on the fire planet, I was so heartbroken that I didn't realize Obi was on the ship with me. I hadn't paid enough attention, the anakin I knew wasn't there anymore. He was trapped inside and i couldn't get him out. I would have given everything I am for him, anything for him. I would have given it all. I had been so selfish to see that he was doing this for me, for us. For us to be together. How could I have been so blind. I gave my life for Anakin, though, I never did die in actuality, I'm still here, I wonder if Anakin can feel me..I can feel him...even if he's not the Anakin I knew, I know I can bring him back, if I"m given a chance...for the thought of losing him completely, that is a thought too much to bear on my soul.

Muse: Padme Amidala
Fandom: Star Wars
Word Count: 899

Dreams, and death, pain and sorrow (pt2)

2006-03-13T07:51:16Z

Part two of three

Padme gasped, as the figure that turned to her was that of something in a mask, the sound of the echoed breathing wafted through the air, a single name fell across the air, in the blanket of darkness that surrounded them.

"Padme...," the voice spoke, and Padme's eyes grew wide, it was Anakin, but how! Then the figure went to pull away, and she felt the anger radiate from the him. "Padme is gone, I killed her!"

"No Ani, it's me!" She grabbed onto his arm, willing him not to turn away, not to walk away. "Please Anakin, don't leave me, don't leave me ever again..."

That was when the figure noticed the ring on her finger, the same one that Anakin had given her on their wedding day. Beneath the mask of metal, the shock registered on the young man's face. His hands, reached out, to pull her near, and she was unafraid. She knew what laid under that mask, it was her husband, she hadn't the need to be afraid. Her voice caught in her throat....as the figure stared down at her.

"Padme...." heavy breathing, as he released her arms, and reached up to take the mask off. What laid underneath, was a face riddled with scars, from dozens and dozens of operations, to regain his normal skin.

Padme could only smile, and reach forward, to run her fingers along the scars, a smile crossing her face. She knew it had been him, she had felt it afterall. He pulled away, looking down, the long hair covering his face. This caused her to frown and reach for him again.

"Don't pull away from me Anakin, I won't let you leave me again. Please, Ani...don't leave me..."

The pleading in her voice was enough to make Anakin's heart thaw from the coldness that surrounded it, and he looked back to her, taking her hand in his. The other arm had been replaced by a robotic one, and Padme, she could care less. It was still the one person she had loved throughout her life.

"I thought I had lost you, Palpatine had told me, that I killed you. I thought all hope was lost ,my love. I thought I had lost you forever, " he smiled, something he never had done since her "death". " I was lost, I didn't mean to hurt you Padme, I was blinded...confused...shadowed over by anger.I would never hurt you..."

"I know Ani, I know. Everthing's alright now, you must come with me. Your children deserve to see you..." she said as she started stepping back, registering the look of shock across his young features. " Yes Ani, children. Twins. Luke and Leia...come with me, to Naboo, to see them..."

She gave a smile, and he followed willingly, unable to take his eyes off of the beautiful sight that was his wife. His one true love, his angel in the darkness. Hope of being reunited with her one day, kept light in his heart.And together, they went off to Naboo, to visit their family, and have a nice long discussion

TO BE CONTINUED!

Dreams, and death, pain and sorrow

2006-03-10T08:22:43Z

((more writing for the opening of the rp that will eventually happen, if i can make things work lol))

Senator Amidala: You're a good person, don't do this.
Anakin Skywalker: I'm doing this for you, to protect you.
Senator Amidala: Anakin... You're breaking my heart. You're going down a path I can't follow.
Anakin Skywalker: Because of Obi-Wan?
Senator Amidala: Because of what you've done, what you plan to do. Stop. Stop now. Come back!
Senator Amidala: I love you!
Anakin Skywalker:Liar!
Senator Amidala: No!
Anakin Skywalker: You're with him! You Brought him here to kill me!
(as anakin uses the force, to start to choke the life from his young wife)
Senator Amidala: No!
(and the world went black...)

Padme screamed awaking in the bed, her body soaked with the sheen of a cold sweat from the dream. She had been reliving that day for the past few weeks now, they never stopped, they just kept replaying over and over in her mind. She had begun to see things in her mind, things that happened around her during this war. During the turning of her husband to the supposed dark side. Something stirred in Padme, something that had never been there before. Anger, and rage filled her heart, and she quickly took a vase, and picked it up throwing it against the door in a agonized scream. Quickly she moved to dress, pulling her hair up into something that wasn't even half right looking, she didn't care. She couldn't shake this feeling, this...feeling of him being near. It was then that she looked over the balcony in Naboo and screamed, at the top of her lungs. In a effort that he would perhaps hear her. He had to be there, she knew it in her heart. Anakin lived. He wasn't dead.

"ANAKIN! WHERE ARE YOU!"

Her voice was filled with that same sorrow that had filled it at Mustafar. She started crying, openly on that balcony, remembering the words that came from her mouth, as Obi-wan looked over her dying form.

Medical Droid: Medically, she is completely healthy. For reasons we can't explain, we are losing her.
Obi-Wan: She's dying?
Medical Droid: We don't know why. She has lost the will to live. We need to operate quickly if we are to save the babies.
Senator Bail Organa: Babies?
Medical Droid: She's carrying twins.
Senator Amidala: Obi-Wan... there... is good in him. I know there is... still...
[and with that, the woman known as Padme dies]

She brought her hands up to her face, to hide it. Sabe' had come in to try and comfort her dear friend, but it was impossible. She kept whispering of Anakin, and how she had to go to him. She MUST see him. She didn't know where she was going to go, but to gather her things. She was flying out that evening, that very same evening. Sabe' had tried to stop her, tried talking sense into the young woman, but Padme refused to listen. She felt something stir in her that she had never felt before. Sabe' didn't understand, but she knew she had to let her go.

And so Padme did, gathering her skirts up in her hands, and slipping into the ship, the same ship that she had flown to her death, and her eyes downcasted upon the buttons remembering. Luke and Leia. They were safely tucked in bed, Sabe' watching over them. She pulled the plane up and started towards the only place she knew in her heart. The place that the beginning, had met it's end. Tatooine. Still replaying the love that they shared in her mind, it brought a smile to her face, remembering of when she professed her love to the man that stood beside her. For she thought it would certainly be their death. And it wasn't, it was the beginning.

Anakin: Don't be afraid.
Padme: I'm not afraid to die. I've been dying a little bit each day since you came back into my life.
Anakin: What are you talking about?
Padme: I love you.
Anakin: You love me? I thought we had decided not to fall in love. That we'd be forced to live a lie and that it would destroy our lives.
Padme: I think our lives are about to be destroyed anyway. I truly... deeply... love you and before we die I want you to know.

That was the day that she had finally started living. Where she felt wanted, and needed. And she saw the sands of the place of time in front of her, as she landed, she remembered coming here, as a handmaiden, and the little boy that had won over her heart with his curiosities of the world. She saw darkness around the entire place, but something called to her, beckoned. It was love that was guiding her, that gut feeling of finding one's other half in the bleakness that had enveloped her life ever since the day she had come back. She licked her lips nervously, ans she blindly walked through the sand. It was there, in the distance, she saw a dark figured cape. A figure that stood tall and felt familiar. It made her body shiver, and she stepped behind the figure, her hand reaching out, almost afraid to touch it, as a memory crossed her mind one more time..

"Anakin?"

The voice, was filled with uncertainty, as the figure slowly turned around...

Anakin Skywalker: You are so... beautiful.
Senator Amidala: It's only because I'm so in love.
Anakin Skywalker: No, it's because I'm so in love with you.
Senator Amidala: So love has blinded you?
Anakin Skywalker: [he laughs] Well, that's not exactly what I meant.
Senator Amidala: But it's probably true.

TO BE CONTINUED

636 words (not including quotes)

Quotes from the movie courtesy of IMDB.com

because this is hot..

2006-03-02T02:11:10Z

from this website:

http://www.tektek.org/dream/index.php

my lil padme!

Application for Theatrical Muse

2006-02-22T17:01:02Z

Topic 114: Secret that shouldn't have been heard

I had always prided myself in my ways to deal with negotiations, and to do what was right for my people. I never imagined that things would turn out such as they had for myself. During my term I have had to hold many secrets that I have heard whispered in the halls, and some were just too much to bare. Some I should have never heard to begin with. There was one, that to this day still makes my body tremble with fear. It was a day like any other, I had been disguised once more as the handmaiden for my own safety, and I was walking through the halls of Naboo, when I came across two citizens speaking to one another. It seemed like any ordinary conversation, but it wasn't. The ime they spent talking to one another as I passed, and the hushed voices told me, that it wasn' simply two lovers speaking to one another. It was something more. That's when I heard about the Jedi Order, they were out in full demand, and that Anakin had made it as a Jedi knight. I was thrilled for him of course, but their words afterwards is what bothered me. They said that the Jedi's had all believed Anakin to be some larger part of a prophecy, and that something would happen, whether it be good or bad. I didn't know what to think. It wasn't until a chance encounter with Anakin and Obi-wan for a second time that I realized what they had meant, and it was something that I tried with every ounce of my strength to avoid, and help him through it. But perhaps, I was too late. I simply wish, I had never heard what I did....

Padme Amidala
Star Wars
293 words.

App for Fandom_Muses

2006-02-13T00:05:41Z

Topic one: What is one thing you have learned from your past?
(written from a AU pov, both, becaue it was simply nicer to think of happy things instead of sad things for her lol)

The past, was something that Padme had never forgotten, for it lived with her day in and day out and it never ceased to amaze her of how she could have changed only one thing in the end if she could have. She would have checked her ship, and she would have made sure that Obi-Wan would have never made it to Mustafar, and that her husband would have never suffered the fate that he was given. It wasn't fair, nor was it right. He was just overwhelmed. Padme had in fact learned from her mistakes, her heartbreaks, the pain of everything.

Had she been given a choice so long ago, she wouldn't have made many choices. She wouldn't have put Palpatine in any kind of power, she would have found a different way to do things. There was ALWAYS a better way of doing things. Nothing had to be the way it turned out. She supposed things always happened for a reason, such as she was here now, standing on the balcony of her home on Naboo, letting these thoughts cross her mind. She sighed, and then looked behind her shoulder to smile, at the empty room. he was alive. She knew he was...she only wondered, could he feel her too?

Topic two: Describe a dream that you've had. How did the dream make you feel?

I remember how they started, all I remember is Anakin's arm going out and taking my breathe away with such anger across his face. Then giving birth to my babies..Luke and Leia. Then the world went black. I can't really honestly say how long I had been asleep. I remember tossing and turning, and cold sweat dripping down my face. I could feel it, but couldn't move. I couldn't open my eyes. I cried, I know that, as I saw how much Anakin had been hurting. I could feel the pain as I watched him die in front of me. It was a dream was it not? He couldn't be dying, there wasn't a possible way for him to be dying. Anakin was stronger then anyone that I had ever known, he would survive, for me. Our love was the only thing that kept us together so many times he claimed, and I believed that. I remember the redness of the blood as it washed over his face, his arms, everywhere..I wanted to run to him, help him. Make it all go away....but I couldn't.

How did I feel afterwards? Like a failure. I failed in keeping my husband safe. That was our vows. To care for one another and watch over each other. I wished I could see his face again, and tell him how I felt, like I did when we were faced with death on Genosis. The dream, made me feel like dying.

Not my best work, albeit, but I though it was the best way to answer both things. If I'm accepted, most prompts will be done canon witha few fandom. lol

Rp Entry for Space_rpg

2006-01-06T05:59:14Z

-Padme had awoken with a start, and her hands went immediately to her throat and a strangled cry escaped the soft pink lips. She licked them absently as she looked around, she didn't know this place...and why was she dressed in the water dress...this dress had been made for her...funeral. Her eyes widened as she took it all in..but how was she here? Why? She struggled to sit up and slip from the casket that had become her resting spot. What year was it? Anakin? Where was Anakin! Her eyes darted around as she made her way from the seemingly empty room to the inner halls of the station, she didn't see anyone. Why was she here? She wanted answers, she wanted her husband, she wanted her babies! A sob escaped her mouth as she brought her hand to cover it, try and stiffle the sound, none of this made sense. Panic had settled into the young woman's mind. Maybe this is what the other side looked like, but surely, she felt that Anakin had died, if this was death, where was Anakin? And why was she breathing?-

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2005-12-16T07:44:47Z

Fandom: Star Wars
Pairing: Anakin Skywalker/Padme Naberrie Skywalker (cuse yes..skywalker WOULD be her last name)
Theme set: Beta
Rating: Pg13
Author's notes: I hope I used some of the words correctly lol

1. Walking:Anakin had looked at Padme, as they were walking down the balcony on Naboo, casting his gaze over the bare skin that showed from the gown she was wearing, thinking how could one woman be so breathtaking.

2. Waltz: Padme could only laugh at Anakin, as he didn't know how to do the waltz, perhaps one of the simpliest dances known at the time.

3. Wishes: All Anakin knew, was in his mind, he wished Padme was his, he wanted to feel his fingertips caressing her skin, and most of all, her wanted to wake up with her each morning.

4. Wonder: Anakin, the moment he laid eyes on Padme as the handmaiden, was filled with wonder of this beautiful "angel" that stood in front of him.

5. Worry: Worry filled the young woman's features as Obi-wan told her that Anakin was a killer of younglings, it couldn't be, not her Ani!

6. Whimsy: She watched in wonderment as Anakin showed her a new trick he learned with the lightsaber, what a whimsy little thing he did with it!

7. Wasteland: Padme had gone to confront Anakin about the things that Obi-wan had told her concerning him, on Mustafar, the wasteland of lava.

8. Whiskey and Rum: Even though Padme hated it when Ani took a drink, she allowed him, and put up with it when he would come home and kiss her, the smell of whiskey and rum still blatantly on his tongue.

9. War: War was one thing that Padme hated, it kept Anakin away from her for such long periods of time and brought worry on her soul.

10. Weddings: Big weddings were something that Anakin and Padme had no need for, they couldn't even if they wanted to.

11. Birthday: Padme surprised Anakin on his birthday after coming home from his journey, wearing a sik gown that slipped of her shoulders in one swift movement.

12. Blessing: The pairing had never gained the blessing of either of their families for the secret ceremony, for they both knew it would bring them nothing but sorrow and disgrace.

13. Bias: Perhaps, in the end, Padme's bias opinion towards her husband had been the last straw of her life.

14. Burning: Even though Anakins flesh burned and he was in tremendous pain, the only thought on his mind was Padme, nothing else mattered but her life.

15. Breathing: As Padme's breathing slowed, she gazed up at Obi-wan, telling him that there was still good in Anakin, and that someone had to help find it again.

16. Breaking: Breaking down into tears was the only thing that Padme could do as she stood there looking out across the landscape of Curoscant, waiting for a sign of her husband's return.

17. Belief: Padme's belief in Anakin's loyalty to the republic had been questioned when she was confronted with what he had done, it was unimaginable, and truely she couldn't believe it.

18. Balloon: The two shared a secret smile, for she remembered when he was just a young boy standing there as a parade was in taking place for the treaty between the Jungons and herself as balloons raised around them.

19. Balcony: They kissed on the balcony, the touches so soft and warm, that she melted into his embrace, if only for a moment in time.

20. Bane: The bane of Padme's life, was inevitably, caused by the one man she truely loved.

21: Quiet: On Naboo, Padme was quiet as she observed Anakin during his meditation, a smile gracing those pale pink lips for a few moments before his words reached her ears.

22. Quirks: Regardless of Padme's cool exterior, Anakin knew she had quirks about her personality that he had gotten to see when she posed as the handmaiden, and for that he was eternally grateful.

23. Question: There was never and question, nor any doubt, that the love that Anakin and Padme shared was true in nature or that it was merely a fling between the two.

24. Quarrel: Padme and Anakin really never did quarrel, surely they had arguments, but never a full blown out fight between each other - it simply never was a issue, until Mustafar.

25. Quitting: One thing that Anakin never did was quit, for quitting was a way of showing vulnerability and weakness - he never quit when it came to Padme, and look what happened to them.

26. Jump: One thought crossed Anakin's mind as he jumped from the platform towards Obi-wan - Padme.

27. Jester: The joker that Anakin was, would play tricks on Padme every once in a while, which lead her to swiftly bop him upside the head - she hated when he tried to play the trickter, it simply wasn't funny at times.

28. Jousting: Jousting was something that Obi and Anakin both enjoyed doing with each other when they had moments of freedom, ones that didn't have Ani rushing to his beloved wife's side.

29. Jewel: Even though Padme never preferred to be dressed as a doll with precious stones and gowns, she enjoyed the company that it brought her.

30. Just: They laughed with each other, as if sharing some secret amongst each other, just because.

31. Smirk: Ani smirked towards Padme, before lifting her in his arms and carrying her to the bed, pressing his lips softly against hers as he loomed over her form.

32. Sorrow: Her heart filled with sorrow as looked Ani in front of her, his words weren't the man she fell in love with, they belonged to some monster, something that wasn't human.

33. Stupidity: In the end of things, it was Anakin's stupidity that killed both him, and his one true love.

34. Serenade: Padme fondly remembered on the ship as she tucked Anakin into the bed, when she serenaded him with a song to soothe the homesick boy to his peaceful slumber.

35. Sarcasm: The words that had been spoken to her dripping with sarcasm, weren't meant to mock her in any way, simply to cause a smile on the gorgeous angel's face.

36. Sordid: The sordid words that fell from Anakin's mouth towards Padme before the darkness overcame him, shocked her more then anything.

37. Soliloquy: Over and over again in the privacy of his quarters, Anakin would speak to himself, repeating what he would say to her when he saw her - the words he would say to profess the love that was within his heart.
38. Sojourn: Even though the sojourn on Naboo had been full of events of their emotions for one another, they were quickly put to rest once they boarded the ship headed to Tatooine
39. Share: The moments that they shared seemed too short lived, for one was always having to run off and do something, but they relished in the fact that at another time, they would be in each other's arms once more.
40. Solitary: Anakin, as much as he fought the need to be around Padme, was not a solitary man by any means, for he enjoyed the company of other people far too much.
41. Nowhere: Anakin had come out of nowhere with the kiss, pressing his lips hard against hers, she had been taken aback by his sudden movements, but returned them eagerly.
42. Neutral: Always one to stay on neutral ground, Padme tried to reason with the Chancellor, but to no avail, so therefore she had to make a stand for her home, for her people.
43. Nuance: Slightly, the nuance of Anakin's nature had begun to show when he had left his wife's side for the second time, and Padme had begun to worry for both of their wellbeings.
44. Near: Padme smiled, touching the necklace around her neck, it made her always feel as if Anakin was near to her.
45. Natrual: Anakin felt no need for Padme to wear makeup or wear fancy clothing, for her natrual beauty is what attracted him to her in the first place, the packaging was simply a facade put on for society.
46. Horizon: Upon the horizon, Padme could see the sun rising, and it brought a sigh to her lips, for she knew, that soon, Anakin would have to leave her to return to his duties as a Jedi Knight.
47. Valiant: The fight was fought valiantly on the lavapits, but in the end it was Anakin that no longer had the upperhand at things, it was Obi-wan.
48. Virtuous: Day after day, Padme had fought a virtuos struggle against the senate to keep her people safe, and in the end, the battle had been one well fought.
49.Victory: Victory was celebrated within Naboo, as the trade federation was defeated, and Padme and Anakin shared a smile between each other - for it also marked the occasion of a budding relationship.
50. Defeat: The death of Padme had been Anakin's defeat, and helped Palpatine gain a stronger hold of the one he had come to call Darth Vader.